Thursday, November 12, 2015

Letting Go of Control!!

One of my struggles in my marriage is not having control over things, I let myself get angry over things that I should let go of. It has taken me a long time to get to a place where I know take a deep breath and think before I speak. I did not realize I had done this till the other day my dear hubby told me he had taken money out of the account without telling me. This has been a issue that would usually have gotten me very upset and very angry. This time I had taken a moment to breathe and we was able to talk about the issue without a huge fight. The reward out of this was my dear hubby more willing to listen to how I was feeling about the issue. 

I have learned in this past year I can not control everything in my life. Things are going to happen in our lives that we can not control, like a car accident, health problems, infertility, marriage problems. Our marriage has not been like a fairy tale, we have faced  many struggles in the years we have been married. Some of those struggles have been money issues, loss of a vehicle and my hubby having a stroke on top of everything. Earlier this year I was in a wreck due to the weather, it took me several months to get over the feeling that I could have done something to stop myself from getting into a wreck. 

There are still times I feel I have to control things in my life, but I have to take a deep breath and pause; I can not control all things. There is only one person who controls things in our lives and He is the one all knowing GOD. 

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